Do you feel that you have Narcissistic personality disorder?

I sometimes feel that I have Narcissistic personality disorder(NPD). I've been cautious since childhood because I've been afraid of being slandered and hope to be praised by someone.

However,I know that Narcissistic personality disorder does me and people around me serious harm including feeling depressed,worsening relationship.

According to some articles,the reason why you tend to get Narcissistic personality disorder is that you are afraid of being blamed for your action before you do.
Moreover,those who have NPD  profess to be intellectual or elite so that they would hope to be praised or esteemed.
It means that you've been dependent on not yourself but others.
That's why those who have NPD can't maintain a normal lifestyle without help.
Some people who have NPD use Facebook or Twitter to obtain a desire for recognition from others,which could lead to deteriorating the symptom.